Ego clash?

"No single girl will ever talk to you after reading your creepy ass blog. You objectify girls and it is way too demeaning". This was a recent feedback I got from a girl who read my blog. Let me make something crystal clear, I never try to objectify girls. As a matter of fact, I have even written a couple of blog posts of mine from a girl’s point of view. What I do try to objectify is love. I feel it is way too overhyped. I have seen a lot of people falling in what they think is ‘love’ and ruin their lives because of that. I have rarely seen people falling in ‘love’ and rising in their lives, be it on a career front or even on a happiness and satisfaction (pun unintended) front for that matter. If you still feel that I am wrong, feel free to contact me, I give a link to contact me at the end of each blog post.

Coming back to my mundane life, the girl about whom I talked about in the last blog post and whom I helped out with editing her CV to get admission in a summer school, got through that summer school. I told you that my gut feeling is never wrong. In fact, she felt so grateful to me for helping her out with her CV that she took me out for drinks. I will share another thing about her which I didn’t know while I was writing the last post. She can’t hold her drinks, she got tipsy after just two rounds of drinks. We were at a club and the music was loud. She was uttering something, but I wasn’t able to figure out what she was saying, partly because of the loud music and partly because she was drunk and was just mumbling words. Suddenly, she came really close to me and in a fraction of a second, I could feel her lips against mine. Now I wasn’t going to back off. We made out like crazy the whole night.

Did you like my  make out tale? If you did then I can become a good fiction writer because it wasn’t a make out tale, it was a made up tale. Truth be told, yes, she got into the summer school with  a full scholarship and thanked me for that over Whatsapp. But we never met after that and she even blocked me on Whatsapp. I am so heartbroken (I think that it is unsaid that this line was sarcasm).

Now lets come to a more recent toll of events. If you scroll down, you will find that I have  written around fifty blog posts and almost in every post I talk about a new girl and I won’t change the pattern, I will talk about a new girl today as well. But what I felt after meeting this girl is a new feeling altogether. I can look at her for hours even if she doesn’t utter a word. It isn’t that I have fallen for her or because of the fact that she is majestically beautiful. But she has an amazing blend of calmness and serenity in her face and a glow that will attract anyone. The glow is probably because she is a spiritual person into meditation. She is into drama so her face is naturally expressive. She is very polite and polished, maybe her years spent abroad have a major role in that. She actually went to vote just to choose the 'none of the above' option just because she didn't want her vote to go to waste.
 We were deciding on a place where we could sit and have a conversation. Both of us were in favor of different locations. She in her suave tone said “I hope that we don’t have ego clashes about things”. I promptly said “Ego clash?? Are you kidding me? I tend to project an image of zero self respect, even in front of girls of half your beauty or intellect and you  think I will have an ego clash with you? I can go even to a langar with you, let’s go to whichever place you prefer”. I haven’t talked about her beauty yet, have I? She is one of the girls who when is out will look as simply beautiful as when at home on a Saturday night, watching a movie. That is a rare species to be found in Delhi, where girls have so much makeup on that if they watch their face, the water won’t be able to enter the drain because the makeup would have clogged the drain pipe. She doesn’t even believe in wearing any ornaments. No necklace, no bangles, nothing. As a matter of fact, she doesn’t even wear her engagement ring. 
Oh yes, I forgot to tell you that I got to know that she is in a happy relationship for the past couple of years, is engaged and will get married by next year. I didn't inquire much about the guy and tried to console myself by saying that it basically doesn’t make a difference, because she must be going out with some hotshot billionaire investment banker type guy and even if she was single, she would have never gone out with a loser like me. The whole time we were together, I was just trying to avoid eye contact with her because I knew that if I looked at her for more than a minute, I might end up falling for her and just hurting myself so I was trying to gaze at an LED behind her playing some lame songs. But one thing is for sure, when I make something of myself and twenty years down the line plan to settle down, I would want it to be with a girl with similar traits as hers. I am just pouring my heart out, her charisma is just magnetic.

I didn’t know whether I’ll see her again or not, so I wanted to cherish every moment of meeting her. In fact, I walked along with her till her car even though I had to go the opposite way just because her company felt so convivial.

Later

Sidhant

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